It has been 5 years since Kevin passed. In that time I have focused on raising my amazing boys from pre-teens to seniors in high school. However, if you walk into my house, my bedroom, my bathroom you would think my husband was still here. As I was doing my deep cleaning after school finished I got to the bathroom and realized it was time. It was time to throw out the toothbrushes, the razor and the shaving cream that have been sitting there for over 5 years. I have been cleaning around them all this time and never thought twice about it, but as I was in there I just decided it was time.
Our bedroom was the next area to tackle. As I dusted Kevin's dresser I found all sorts of things, some stuff did get thrown out and others were just dusted off and put back. I am good with that. I threw out his underwear and socks and his jeans will be next. That will be it for now though. I am not in a place in my life where I can just get rid of everything of his. I can't box it up, I can't throw it out, I can't not have him with me.
That is me though, that is how I deal with it. I know people who were able to get rid of their spouses stuff, start dating and get married. I don't judge them for that, it is just not me. Everyone is different in how they process death and loss. Me, I take it one year, one day, one moment at a time. 
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