The First of Many
This year as we continue through our second year without Kevin and move into year 3, we are beginning to hit the big things without Kevin. Today was the first of many big things in our lives that we are doing without Kevin. The twins were confirmed this morning. For me it was extremely difficult standing there watching my boys in their new suits being blessed by the bishop by myself. My family was there with me but I was not with my partner, soul mate, the boys dad. I was alone. During the service I cried several times and just tried to keep it together the rest of the day. Nate and I went out in the afternoon and talked about the day. He is a very wise young man. We discussed how I missed dad being there with me and with them. Nate's response was "Mom, Dad was there standing right next to you." I love that boy and his spirit and insight. I try to be strong for them but I think they are the strong ones for me!
This year as we continue through our second year without Kevin and move into year 3, we are beginning to hit the big things without Kevin. Today was the first of many big things in our lives that we are doing without Kevin. The twins were confirmed this morning. For me it was extremely difficult standing there watching my boys in their new suits being blessed by the bishop by myself. My family was there with me but I was not with my partner, soul mate, the boys dad. I was alone. During the service I cried several times and just tried to keep it together the rest of the day. Nate and I went out in the afternoon and talked about the day. He is a very wise young man. We discussed how I missed dad being there with me and with them. Nate's response was "Mom, Dad was there standing right next to you." I love that boy and his spirit and insight. I try to be strong for them but I think they are the strong ones for me!
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