I can not believe it has been 7 years. It is amazing how life goes on, how things ebb and flow, how you learn to do what you have to do to survive. Survive - that is what I have done for 7 years, survived. It was not easy, but here I am. I have raised 2 boys through their teenage years. Yes, Kevin missed all of their teen years. The boys were 12 and now they will be 20. I survived, a few more grey hairs, a few more wrinkles but I made it through. We got through middle school, high school, driving, graduation and starting college.
It is not just me it has been hard on, but the boys too. I am mom and dad, trying to teach mom and dad things, that's a laugh. I am learning to be handy, sort of. We navigate through things together, YouTube is my friend. When you have 2 parents each one has their things you go to them for, I am it. When you have 2 parents you have options for advice, I'm it. They only have me, for the good, the bad and the ugly. It is hard being supportive and a hard ass at the same time.
I have had amazing support from family and friends. I don't know where we would be without them. But ultimately it was the boys and me. Now they are on to the next chapter of their lives and this is the chapter that Kevin and I were looking forward to, together. However, that chapter is just me now, but not completely. As I said, I have amazing family and friends. Friends who h
ave made sure I am not sitting home alone, friends who I go out with to talk, eat and drink, friends I sometimes do crafts with or drive and find some crazy thing to check out, friends I can laugh with, who support me and give me advice when I need it. Then there is my family, who I travel with, make spur of the moment plans with and couldn't live without.
My life may not be where I thought it would be, but all and all it is not so bad!
